*Trigger Warning for those struggling with their mental health*
Today starts Mental Health Awareness Month as well as Borderline Personality Disorder Awareness Month. I’ve struggled with both since the time I was barely a teenager and still struggle today although not nearly as bad.
This May is very important to me as the 13th marks the 10 year anniversary of my last suicide attempt.
My teenage years were spent in great pain, self harm, suicide thoughts and actions, and not taking my medications. May of 2009 was the attempt where I truly wanted to die, I felt like a burden, and that I was better off dead. I’m so thankful I changed my mind and called for help. It didn’t get better right away but I really worked with my treatment team to gain skills to cope, and I learned I had to take my medication. I got a job that really helped (and I’m still there!!)
Do I still struggle? Oh you bet I do. I still have my bad days. I even had quite a scare earlier this year when I was trying to change medications. But it no longer feels like a life sentence.