Recovery can be an incredibleand empowering thing. All the moments we proudly want to share… but we don’treally talk about the ugliness that is behind the scenes…
Thismonth I’ve talked about the empowering things I’ve gotten to do. And todayI’mgoing to talk about the embarrassing and ugly things that is also recovery!
Depression – Most of the time I have zero motivation, no energy, so much sedation from the medication that lets mesleep at night. I spend too much time in bed. It’s a comforting escape but unhealthy and embarrassing.
Personal care – a lot of the time Ihaveno energy or motivation to shower or do my hair. Some days it’s a chore and Iactuallyhaveto schedule it in so I do it. Embarrassing right?
Victim blaming – I still have moments that I think what happened to me was my fault. I’ll get myself into a frenzyand end up having to call my advocate to reassure me that I was notto blame. It’s a pretty ugly thing.
Sometimes I’m just not OK, sometimes I’m just a downrightmess and that’s OK. Recovery can be such an incredible and empowering thing and othertimes… it’s ugly and embarrassing.
There are many sides to recovery. The good, the bad and the ugly. And without any of it I would not be the person I am today!