Lately I’ve been bombarded with anxiety, unwanted thoughts, on-coming depression, freaking out about health issues and what feels like 50-million other things. That’s what having anxiety and depression can feel like.
I need to continue to sleep less (yeah, I’ve sucked at it since the police report)
I need to be doing cleaning – laundry, vacuuming, and to hit the disaster room! All which I have no energy for.
I need to get my health under control. This means eating healthy while being a very picky eater who has never met the balance between one eating disorder to another. I’m not getting any younger and it scares me because I could die.
I also feel like God is punishing me for some angry thoughts/wishes I had as a teenager.
I feel like I’m falling apart.
This is the real me. I’m being open with you about my current struggles.
And it’s another month until I go on my annual trip to the Porcupine Mountains and to see the Lake Superior.
I’ve got to do something today – right now – to help with my mood.
Whether that means –
taking a walk to clear my head
taking a relaxing bath and putting on some lotion and lighting some candles
reading a good book, or watching a relaxing show
staying off social media for a bit
taking my medication
That’s a good start for me to focus on. Self care. Self care. Self care.
I hope maybe some of my ideas can help others too!