I’m late for National Eating Disorder Awareness Week but I figure it’s important to talk about it all year round.

I have struggled with eating disordered patterns from the time I was a teenager. I’m been on both sides of the spectrum. It has always been a struggle to find the balance and the side effects of my seroquel don’t help matters.

Last year I made wonderful progress with eating foods for nutrients/fuel and getting the drug induced binges under control. I also managed to start to get to a healthier weight by eating right and exercising. Over the winter time I got out of the habit. Depression, lack of motivation and thyroid issues has led to weight gain.

I’ve been trying to stay off the scale unless it’s for a doctor’s appointment. I know if I look at the number I will determine my worth and steal my confidence.

Yesterday I did a mini photo shoot based on the fact that I believed I looked great. I felt confident, fearless and full of joy!

I am so much more than a number on the scale. I’m excited to start walking again because it is something I enjoy! And I am going to work on food for fuel again because I want to be healthy so that I can live the best life I deserve.