Christmas-time is here and I’m excited about it but I’m also feeling dread and unhappiness. For the first time in years I’m stuck in a depression that I can’t seem to pull myself out of.

I think it started with the med change and gradually got worse as I experienced reporting my rape, being told I waited too long, my advocate and confident left and the latest was the newest med change. I’m not sure when it happened but I feel life is over my head and I’m drowning in it!!

I absolutely hate feeling like this. I’m seeing my medication NP Friday and hopefully we can figure something out so I can start enjoying life again!

Depression sucks. But I no longer refuse to be silent about it. I will keep speaking until I’m heard!

Please take care of yourself as you go into the holiday season. It’s wonderful but it can also be ugly when blinded by grief or depression!