As we are closing out the year I wanted to write a blog post on the reality of depression… at least mine, I can’t speak for everyone else.
Underneath my smiling personality is someone that suffers with depression, and other mental illnesses. ..
The other day I was curled up on my couch so depressed I could barely move. I wanted to die. The ironic thing? Everything in my life has finally started to look up, I’m loved and in general a happy person who loves life.
Because of my mental illnesses and the TWO major medication changes I am currently on, sometimes my reality is I’ll feel so depressed I can’t move. And, I’ll feel like dying. I know it passes, but it’s a horrible thing to wait out.
The reality of depression (mine anyway) is I may be struggling one minute/day and not the next. And it doesn’t make it any less real.
Be sure to give yourself and your loved ones a big hug. ❤ You aren’t a failure. It’s an illness that we can’t help. We can do all the right things and still be curled up in a ball on the floor. I see and care about each and everyone of you.
❤ Katie Butterfly
PS. I wish you all a wonderful 2019!