I’vestruggled with my relationship with food for years… abusing it in one way or another, never finding the balance.
Restrictingcalories gave me a sense of control. Then it becameaboutcomfort in the form of self-care.
I’vealsobeen in a terrible cycle of night binge-ing because of medicationside effects and thensleeping my day away because of the heavy sedation.
Being put on adderall has been a God-send. The best way I can describe it… it makes me feel human. However, it still wasn’thelping with the night binge-ing becauseI was not getting the nutrients I needed during the day and eatingonlyprocessed refined carbs.
I decided to start cutting out theprocessed refined junk, andreplace it with the nutrients my body has been starved of. So far, the only Seroquel-induced binges I’ve had are whenI’ve had to work the evening shifts at work, as itthrows off my normalschedule. I’m not going to sweat it though, cheat days are OK.
I wanted to tell my therapistwhatI’m doing becauseIdon’t totally trust myself when it comes to food and diets… and she couldn’t be more proud. In the pastI only counted calories and the least I had the better and whatI’mdoingnow is healthy and for good reasons.
I’veabused my body for too long and now I’mgivingitthe love it deserves. Self–careisn’tjustabout bubble baths, shopping and comfort food. Sometimes it’s doing things we hate because we know it’s good for us.