Month: February 2016

The Day I Thought My Heart Would Break

April 22, 2015 started out like any other. Jeff and I had just recently  found out we had gotten our first apartment. My mom-in-law and I were giddy and hanging out in our new but still empty apartment, talking excitedly about our bright future….

“If Things Don’t Get Better, I Don’t Want To Be Around.”

“If things don’t get better I don’t want to be around.” I’ve heard these words a lot in my life. They are also words I’ve said and felt myself. That was before I knew there was sun after the storm. That the darkness doesn’t…

Speak Out: Katrina’s Story

*Trigger Warning* “Growing up in a rural area, all of my friends were at least a mile away from me. There were no neighbors. I went to school forty minutes from home until high school, and then it was still twenty minutes to school….

Things I Realized After My Last Suicide Attempt

I recently found this. I wrote it after my last suicide attempt, which was almost 7 years ago now. I’m glad I found it. There are a lot of positive things I’d forgotten about. It was a horrible time but taught me so much. Things I…

Victim, Survivor, Thriver – My Letter From Susie McEntire

Last year  I sent an e-mail to Susie McEntire (Yes, Reba’s sister) telling her my story, and she responded. At first, I wasn’t sure I wanted to share it as it’s very personal, but then I thought it could help others too. Her words are in…

Love Letter to Myself

Dear Katie Butterfly, You are such an incredibly person. So kind and brave. You have been through a lot but you haven’t let that stop you from fighting and keep moving forward. 10 years ago you were barely surviving high school. You were depressed…

How Not to Treat a Survivor

Whether we mean to or not, sometimes what we think is going to be helpful, is sometimes, well not. This is not meant to offend anyone, but a look into how helpfulness can be perceived by survivors. “I don’t want people walking on eggshells…